or at least attempt to find one. i’m a self-proclaimed jackie of too many trades.

i can do this…

and teach this… 
 

and light this…

and then there’s this…
 

and sometimes this…

and yet, here i stand on the brink of poverty. all these gigs, pet projects and side hustles don’t add up to much in the way of security.

ah… the magical word. yea, sure. i can pay my bills, no problem. yes, yes. i have an inspiring, supportive family and a dope circle of friends who won’t let me fall victim to the “starving artist syndrome”, but father save me if i get into an accident or lose all my teeth, cause my ass sure as hell ain’t insured. no j. lo. and i can’t just up and strike out on my own, let alone travel, buy a car or get an apartment. i’m good enough for right now, sure, but definitely not for the long haul.

which brings us to the moral of this story: what do i want to do with this life?! what do i want the next 40-some-odd years of my life to sum up to? teaching? (eh.) performing? (maybe.) helping the greater good of humanity? (yes, absolutely!) solidifying my name in the history books? (well, that would be nice.) but how? and doing what? or really the question should be creating what? these are questions for 2011.

all these long work days are finally coming to an end! after two weeks of juggling rehearsal schedules and trekking all over the city, i’m designing lighting two dance events on sunday and monday.

sunday’s showcase is being present by :pushing progress at manhattan movement and arts center and features the work of some the brightest stars in new york’s contemporary and commercial dance scenes. tickets for this event are on sale now!
visit www.pushingprogress.com for more information.

i am filled with the sincerest gratitude for landing monday’s gig. i’ll be lighting jason parson’s solo at THE JOYCE THEATER! he will be performing as a guest artist at dancin’ downtown benefitting dancer’s responding to aids.
visit www.dradance.org for more information.

after monday, i’ll be able to rest for a minute before rehearsals for my summer gigs and my new teaching schedule kick into high gear. i’m looking forward to some sun this weekend. the cold rain is exhausting.